Do We Feel Transmission?

We never feel the transmission. We feel the effect of the transmission. Because the transmission always goes into the heart, but the effect can be felt anywhere. Like we eat here, but we feel the food in the stomach, and if people have acidity they feel the pain - here. So what happens is, that like electricity, if there is a bulb - you see a light; if there is a fan - you see it turning the air; if there is some motor - it is turning. So we should not confuse the transmission with its effect. The effect can be anywhere. It should change from point to point.

Transmission comes only after cleaning. Transmission without cleaning can actually damage a person. So transmission is always done only after sufficient cleaning has been done. That is why we give these introductory three sittings which are devoted solely to cleaning. No transmission at all.

All the lightness that you feel during a sitting is not due to transmission at all, it is due to cleaning. Cleaning gives you lightness. Transmission, when you are light, gives you the feeling of going deep into the meditation. Transmission, when it is gross, produces vibrations, all these funny things, you see. The subtler it is, the more you must feel that there has been nothing happening in the meditation. But after the sitting is over you feel the difference.

Transmission cannot give stress. You see, when the system is clean, you have a state of thoughtlessness, or of near thoughtlessness. Thoughtlessness is not a spiritual condition, it is condition where your inside is evacuated of all grossness, almost all grossness, so that there is no thought to come up from inside, you see. Now you can receive thoughts from outside, you are pure now. It can be divine thought, it can be Master's instructions. They come from outside. Now they are no longer your thoughts. They cannot disturb you. In that condition, when you receive a transmission, you are able to plunge - straight, you see.

Transmission is defined as 'pranasya prana' - Life of life. Now that which was a mere mechanical 'I' before, becomes a real living 'I'. I think that is one of the reasons why, sometimes in abhyasis, we find more egoism after they have become abhyasis than they were before they started sadhana. When the sleeping 'I' becomes the waking 'I', one would assume more justifiably, that it is more aware of itself, and that is what egoism is - to be more aware of the self. Therefore, the day we first receive our transmission and Master makes us come alive to the real existence, in the life in life, that should also be the moment when we should surrender that life to Him and the new life that has come to us doesn't belong to us because He has made it. He has given us life. So it is His.

Our life began actually, effectively in a very true sense, on the day we received our first transmission at the hands of our Master. So it is in a sense our birthday that we are celebrating. When we are here on the Master's birthday and we remember the Master in a special way on this day, it is our birthday we are remembering, it is an offering of our gratitude, our love - "Master, you made me alive on this day. I am eternally grateful to you for putting me alive, when I was just an automaton which was running around on wheels, run by an internal motor, which I called foolishly 'my heart'. You made that heart come alive, by coming into the heart and becoming the heart of my heart. You made my life come alive, by becoming the life of my life. You gave meaning to my existence, by giving me a purpose."