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Surrender Means ...
Surrender is not a process; like cleaning is a process, meditation
is a process. Now in cleaning we are doing something to remove something,
to achieve a different condition. I eat so that my hunger may be fulfilled,
but that’s not the purpose of eating. Hunger is a sensation created
by the system to show me that I need more fuel in the boiler. So there
is no such thing as hunger – hunger is a signal to say, “Put more fuel
inside.” So when we say, “I am hungry.” it does not mean I am hungry
- I feel a sensation which tells me that my stomach is empty and I need
something put into it.
Similarly with thirst. My body needs fluids, drink - it doesn’t mean
I should take wine or beer. It means my body needs some fluid content.
Similarly, when I feel unclean, I take a bath. Now there’s no word for
clean and unclean. You can only say, “I feel dirty.” This is external
dirt, which you can see; you can touch and say, “Oh, it’s all black.”
Internal dirt, grossness, we don’t feel. So the Master comes and says,
you are gross, do the cleaning. Now you need outside help. So first
we depend on ourselves – we feel hungry, we feel thirsty, we feel sick,
we feel happy, all these things and we try to fulfill these needs ourselves.
Then come the inner needs: that I am heartbroken, I have to go to the
psychiatrist; I have bad dreams, I have to go to somebody else. Now
I need God. I cannot find Him, I don’t know where He exists or how to
get in touch with Him, so I go to the Master and He says, “All right,
first do the cleaning and then take the sitting.” Now when we come to
the Master, it’s like when we go to the doctor. Master says if you go
to the doctor and say, “do this” or “do that”, it is not surrender to
the doctor. You must allow the doctor to do what is necessary. If he
says, “lie down” you have to lie down. If he says, “I want to put an
injection in your arm.” you say, “Yes, doctor.” he says, “I have to
operate.” You say, “OK.” We are surrendering to the doctor. We are able
to surrender to the doctor because our need to get well is urgent. Otherwise
I can die. So our interest in ourselves makes us surrender to the doctor.
But in spirituality we don’t feel the urgent need to correct our inside
condition, because we cannot see it, we cannot feel it. Therefore we
say, okay, we’ll do it tomorrow or next year and we go on delaying and
the grossness increasing, our condition is worse and worse, and then,
like in underdeveloped countries like India, one day, when we are dying,
we go to the doctor when it is too late. So we should be able to appreciate
that, like my health is vitally necessary to me, therefore I am willing
to say to the doctor, “Do anything you like, but make me well.” I must
be able to have so much interest in my spiritual welfare that when I
go to the Master I must say, “Do what you like, make me well spiritually.”
And therefore my Master uses the ultimate example of the dead body:
it has no reaction, it has no pain, it has no pleasure, it has nothing.
Anything you want to do with it, you can do with it. That must be our
condition in surrender.
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